Peace. . .

Soo I'm still not exactly sure how this whole blogging thing works...hopefully I figure it out soon..lol.

So today I pondered the idea of joining the peace corps..Yep, I'm definitely more "seriously considering" it than just "pondering." If anyone's ever been, I'd love some feedback. I just want to do something so selfless. And to experience something like that would be amazing!! Something you can't ever forget...and it'd definitely make me appreciate what I have. I sooo want to do it.

Do you ever wonder where you'll be in ten years? Ten years from now I will be 31...That's insane..It seems far away but when put into perspective it's really not at all. Sometimes I wish I could just get a glance at what I am doing on this very moment on this very day ten years from now..deep, right? lol seriously tho..Sometimes I think about that..If I would've been able to do that ten years ago, I wouldn't have recognized my self. And I realize it would've just caused more questions to arise, but I still am just so curious! It's bizarre to think how things change so drastically. In life, we have such great expectations...we think about things prior to them happening, then we're disappointed in the way they turn out..or maybe not. But what if we didn't have expectations at all? What would things be like then? Things would always be good, because we wouldn't expect them to be any other way. Crazy, right?

Right now I'm listening to Why Georgia by John Mayer. He asks if he's living his life right? But is there a right way at all? I guess that depends on how you look at things. But right now I feel like there is no "right way." Everyone lives a different life.. Just like no one person is the same, no two people can have the same life, nor can they have the same experiences. Someone once told me, I can't remember who, that two people can take the exact same vacation, stop at all the same places, drive the same kind of car, do all the same things, but their trip will never be the same one. Because although they are doing the same things, they aren't the same person. They think different thoughts, they meet different people, they have a completely different experience.

I also think it's odd how depending on your surroundings, your perspective, or your ideas and thoughts are different. Sometimes I feel like going to the peace corps and taking my time growing up is the best thing for me. Taking advantage of my youth while I still can. I have my whole life to do other things, right? But there are other times, when I'm in other places with other people, where I feel like I'm completely not right for that, and I'm supposed to finish school as soon as possible, and find the love of my life and settle down and have a family, and so on. I wonder why that is. Is it because I want both of those things, it's just up to me how I go about them? Because those both are my goals and I have to choose my own path? Which brings me back to the question that John Mayer and I both ponder..."am I living it right??"

Well, maybe there is no right way...we just have to figure out which way we fit into our own lives..

Ugh, life's so complicated sometimes...

Just a few things that have been on my mind today..nothing big..

Night all :)