So...today was the first day of summer...SO GREAT! Well, the fact that its finally summer, that is :) Today itself wasn't that special. I did get to go back home and visit with my mom and brother and sister..Which is always great :) Then came home to a salad and watched the Bachelorette! Oh I loovvvvveee that show....I can't understand how they can handle being with so many people at once, but watching it's one of my guilty pleasures, that's for sure! Love it.
So yesssss..summertime..now wouldn't it be nice if we were all younger and in school again so we could have the entire summer to be stress free and not worry about school and work?! Ahhhh what I would give for that lol. But I plan on making this summer a great one :) This weekend my bestie is coming down to visit and we have all kinds if festivities planned...watched out Sacramento, here we come! lol...we never get to see each other, living so far away. So we're really looking forward to it :) Going to be a good time. And then I have a wedding to go to...which I am SOOOOOO excited for! I love weddings! They just have such happy vibes...lol...kinda gives people hope that there is love out there after all. Well, naive people like me anyways haha. Sooo then for 4th of July some friends and I are planning a CAMPING trip! Which I can't wait for! That's going to be a blast. We went last year and unfortunately it was a bust... :/ So we plan on making this year much better!
Along with having a funfilled summer, I also fully intend on making it a healthy one. Filled with lots of fruits, veggies, and exercise! :) lol So far I've been doing fairly well...unfortunately I still have my weak moments...like tonight...I had to have some ice cream.. :/ but it's alright to indulge once in awhile, right? I mean a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do...But yes..every intention of having a fun and healthy summer, and hopefully lose a few unwanted pounds...what girl doesn't like the sound of that, right??
Well, part of staying healthy is definitely getting enough sleep, so I'm off to get some beauty rest :) Hope all my fellow bloggers enjoyed THEIR first day of summerrrr!!

Nighty Night Blog World...
:)

On a lighter note...

I can't wait until I get used to this whole blogging thing..

I THINK i've finally figured out how to "follow" someone else's blog...you..get this...press "follow"...crazy, right?? lol ya I guess you have to be smarter than than the website..idk tho, that's asking quite a bit..Anyways, I'm still not sure if anyone's even reading MY blogs?? Ughh wayy more frustrating than expected..

Still feels good to vent tho ... and pretend people are listening ;)

I turned 21 recently...Best birthday party of my life so far, by the way. I thought that after turning 21 I'd be all about going to the bars with friends, having a drink a few nights a week, but I'm so not! Today I went to Tahoe, and realized that I'd rather browse the shops, and lounge on the beach than go out and party and gamble..does that make me boring?? Hope not lol. By the way, I gambled 20 bucks and lost it! What kind of crap is that?! So not a gambling fan...Anyways, since I had such a blast going out to bars with my friends on my birthday I figured I would want to do that regularly..but nope! Not me. Weird lol. I suppose that's a good thing tho! I guess I'm not your "average" 21 year old girl like I thought...

So I have a date with this guy this week...and I'm much more nervous than necessary!! I am not the kind of girl who just goes on "dates." I am the kind of girl who has relationships..I've never just dated before!! That's weird too, huh?! (I'm finding from this blog that I'm MUCH more odd than I thought). I have only had long tern relationships. AND my love life has been pretty much non existent for about a year...I suppose that's why I'm so nervous?? ugh..so much unnecessary stress in my life lol.. I almost just don't want to go..but that's dumb too, because how will I ever find my "soulmate" if I don't even ever date anyone?! Aghh..Alright I think I'll give it a go..I've talked myself into it..Travis, here we go! ;)

Well I'm off to bed, gotta wake up early and go to the gym and to work...long day!

Sleep tight fellow bloggers
;)

Peace. . .

Soo I'm still not exactly sure how this whole blogging thing works...hopefully I figure it out soon..lol.

So today I pondered the idea of joining the peace corps..Yep, I'm definitely more "seriously considering" it than just "pondering." If anyone's ever been, I'd love some feedback. I just want to do something so selfless. And to experience something like that would be amazing!! Something you can't ever forget...and it'd definitely make me appreciate what I have. I sooo want to do it.

Do you ever wonder where you'll be in ten years? Ten years from now I will be 31...That's insane..It seems far away but when put into perspective it's really not at all. Sometimes I wish I could just get a glance at what I am doing on this very moment on this very day ten years from now..deep, right? lol seriously tho..Sometimes I think about that..If I would've been able to do that ten years ago, I wouldn't have recognized my self. And I realize it would've just caused more questions to arise, but I still am just so curious! It's bizarre to think how things change so drastically. In life, we have such great expectations...we think about things prior to them happening, then we're disappointed in the way they turn out..or maybe not. But what if we didn't have expectations at all? What would things be like then? Things would always be good, because we wouldn't expect them to be any other way. Crazy, right?

Right now I'm listening to Why Georgia by John Mayer. He asks if he's living his life right? But is there a right way at all? I guess that depends on how you look at things. But right now I feel like there is no "right way." Everyone lives a different life.. Just like no one person is the same, no two people can have the same life, nor can they have the same experiences. Someone once told me, I can't remember who, that two people can take the exact same vacation, stop at all the same places, drive the same kind of car, do all the same things, but their trip will never be the same one. Because although they are doing the same things, they aren't the same person. They think different thoughts, they meet different people, they have a completely different experience.

I also think it's odd how depending on your surroundings, your perspective, or your ideas and thoughts are different. Sometimes I feel like going to the peace corps and taking my time growing up is the best thing for me. Taking advantage of my youth while I still can. I have my whole life to do other things, right? But there are other times, when I'm in other places with other people, where I feel like I'm completely not right for that, and I'm supposed to finish school as soon as possible, and find the love of my life and settle down and have a family, and so on. I wonder why that is. Is it because I want both of those things, it's just up to me how I go about them? Because those both are my goals and I have to choose my own path? Which brings me back to the question that John Mayer and I both ponder..."am I living it right??"

Well, maybe there is no right way...we just have to figure out which way we fit into our own lives..

Ugh, life's so complicated sometimes...

Just a few things that have been on my mind today..nothing big..

Night all :)

My first blogging experience...here we goooo!

I'm not usually the kind of girl to spill my guts, and unfortunately I tend to be easily persuaded, so when I DO spill my guts and someone tries to change my mind, it's often not a difficult task...so today i decided to start a blog...It's pretty much anonymous and I get to get feedback on what I have to say! Without being forced to agree! lol...So here goes... :) Basically, I'm your average 21 year old girl...I'm single at the moment, I go to school, I work at a clothing store, I live with my parents, but still pay rent, I have all your basic problems and insecurities... blah blah blah...nothing too exciting going on there. Forever I've been unsure of what I want to DO with my life...You know how every kid growing up had this huge dream of becoming famous, or becoming a doctor, or this or that? Well I wasn't one of those kids...I had no idea what I wanted to do. I figured it would just come to me one day, so I didn't stress about it. Then came high school graduation day and...crap! I had no idea what I wanted...So after 3 years of random classes at a JC, I finally figured out what I like... THE WORLD!! lol..This seems silly, right? Because of course everyone likes the world..it's our home! But I am so intrigued by it! And I think everyone should see it and experience it!! I have been thinking, and i think it's so sad that some people never even get to leave their hometown! I mean, I haven't been far, but I know that there's SO much out there, and it's intended for us to SEE! I just want to live it... Anywhoooo...I just had to get that out there... Can't wait for another blogging session ;) lol I'll switch it up next time.. Night all :)